I'm not complaining. I am happy that I'm no longer at home cleaning poopy bottoms and feeding baby food to an infant.......I think......see, I had a sadness in my heart yesterday. Why, you ask? Because of this.......
Yesterday, this little guy was born. Who is he? His name is Micah. Isn't he precious? Maria, the girl I'm filling in for at work, gave birth to this sweet, perfect miracle. And you know what happened to me? I got the fever. This is the second time in about a month that I have internally grieved that I'm not going to have any more of these. It is such a joy to be happy for someone else, but the finality of knowing that this will never be you again is, well, for me, heartbreaking.
I never thought I would feel this way. I mean, I'm the person that, when asked, would say, "Heck no, I'm not having anymore kids! I took care of that after #3...." Now I'm realizing that it really is true.
I guess I will have to live vicariously through my friends who are still bearing children. At least that way I won't have milk leaking from my boobs.
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Hello! So glad you stopped by and introduced yourself. I love to find a new bloggy friend. And I understand your thoughts on this post completely! I have 4, plenty, but the thought of no more babies is SO sad. It truly is a mourning process to get through.
a thoughtful hmmmm, and an Amen from the choir.
Dontcha hate it when life gets in the way of blogging?! LOL!! Just kidding but I know how it feels to get so busy your blog suffers.
He IS precious and I can see why that longing would surface. Babies are just magical.
Dontcha hate it when life gets in the way of blogging?! LOL!! Just kidding but I know how it feels to get so busy your blog suffers.
He IS precious and I can see why that longing would surface. Babies are just magical.
I have FINALLY reached the point where I don't suffer from baby fever, but it was such a long time in coming. I think Gabe was totally the cure for me, and God knew what he was doing making him #3.
Hate that you're working so much...miss you around these parts.
I got hit with these feelings a few weeks ago... when my brother and his wife announced they were expecting their 3rd. I felt sad knowing I'll never have three, myself.
I don't really have baby fever all that often, but as I was walking through a dept store with my youngest the other day, I passed by racks of infant one-piece outfits and almost cried. We're definitely done, but at that moment, I would've agreed to 1 more pregnancy in an instant.
I know the feeling, especially at my age there will be no more...but I often think of the 3 we lost and how it would have been to have all 7 here....miss your blogging...I cut down cause of school ...it happens.
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